A Girl and Her Boys

Project 365 Above is the link to my Project 365 blog. I'm going to post the first picture tomorrow. Probably won't be until evening that I post the picture, but it will be there. And this project to the list of my goals. Hopefully I will do well! I may not post every day, but there will be a picture taken every day...that's the point right *wink* Now that that's out of the way. I need to vent. One of the guys I work with - who I met/became friends with/hung out with because of B - asked me about a month ago if I wanted to play VB with them again this Spring. I said SURE! I mean, B still has his issues of texting me now and again and flirting. *sigh* Will it ever stop?! I think probably over time, but every time I think that, I get another text. Anywho...So, B would be on the team again, but I can handle it. I don't have an issue with it. I'm an adult. Apparently B is not... I'll explain. Yesterday, my friend L and I (who now sits right next to B's cube...

So, here's how I've done so far: 1. Wake up at 6:30 every morning. NO SNOOZE BUTTON. Check! Woke up at 6:35 this morning...Felt like I had a LOT of time on my hands!! And my hair and apparel look a little better today too. So, double check! 2. No facebook at work, not even at lunch. And blogger only at lunch to update on my goal(s) status. Fail. Been on it twice. BUT for only a moment or two while waiting on a report to run...better but still not good. 3. DIET - not a strict one but NO snacks in between meals and much smaller portions. Much, much smaller. Again Fail. Had two mini candy bars - why is it that the ONLY person I really sit close to now has a free for all, never ending supply candy bowl. Its a daily test I tell ya... 4. 35 minutes on the stairmaster every night as soon as I get home from work. If I have plans after work, then have to do the stairmaster in the a.m. Any other working out is optional but this is mandatory. Three strikes...Fail. Well last night was a...

I've got this terrible little habit that pops up from time to time, of doing things, or more especially NOT doing things, that I should or even want to accomplish. I don't know if its out of laziness or lack of motivation but I just have a hard time being "self- destructive " of my own goals. For example: -I cannot make myself get out of bed before 7:10 in the morning anymore. Even when I'm not tired, I still refuse to get up. Reverting back to my childish ways of being a morning hating 5 year old, I guess. Not to mention this make me 10 min late to work every day. And this morning, it was 7:25...ridiculous. -I have been eating a lot of CRAP the last couple of weeks. And I don't even want to eat it and it makes me feel fat and bloaty and just down right terrible, but I just keep eating and eating and eating... -I have not stepped on my stairmaster for 6 days... that's more days in a week I've missed than in an entire month before now. Granted I'...

So, by a 67% majority vote of all my loyal readers votes (My friend D didn't vote - who is the other 33%), it looks like I WILL be doing the Project 365. I'm excited. I'm optimistic . I have high hopes. I'll probably slack off at some point. BUT, I'm gonna do it. It will be very cool to see my year in pictures. I'm going to try very hard NOT to do a years worth of pictures of Gemma ... Instead I'm really going to try and focus on what made that day special. I hope to start my project on April 1st so stay tuned for the link! :o) My next decision that I'll need to make regarding the project is what to do with the pics when I'm done. I may do a scrapbook... we'll see! But I'm definitely printing them out and doing something with them collectively Recap from the weekend. I saw two great movies this weekend. First, we took j to see "Alice in Wonderland" at the IMAX theatre and we both L-O-V-E-D it. J wasn't quite as impressed but he...

I'm contemplating doing a Project 365 blog... Such a cool idea and I think it would be fun to look back and see how my year was in pictures :) And, yes, I'm copying off my sister's 365 blog . Opinions?

St. Patrick's Day is a great holiday isn't it?? I love everything about it! The color green, the beer, Irish FOOD, I love it all. I even painted my fingernails green. So I want to wish everyone a Happy St. Patty's Day !! Drink lots of green beer, eat lots of corned beef and cabbage, and may the luck of the Irish be with you!

T minus 6 D A Y S And I will be done with the detox diet! Whoo-hoo! I'm going to try not to go crazy and pack back on ALLL this weight I've lost.... wait... I've still not lost ANY weight. Oh yeah... that's right. Diets blow. Anywho, I'm still behaving myself, still working out, still truckin along believe in the "babe, your body composition is just changing". *sigh* Still nothing on the scales has changed. Like the day after I said I hadn't even lost a tenth of a pound, I lost like 0.6 lbs...buuuuutttttt, last night I gained back 1.2 lbs. Damn you fluctuating weight. Thankfully this morning I was back down 1 lb, but that still means I till gained 0.2. Errr. I need to stop weighing myself. On a brighter side, I do think I'm shrinking in inches. I feel a little slimmer and my pants all feel a little baggier. And it seems like my face looks slimmer in the mirror. This could all be imaginary and me deluding myself into believing all this sacrifice...

Just a little detox diet update. This blows. And sucks...at the same time. It's just that bad that its both. BUT I've made it 7 whole days without slipping once. Well, if you count the "cocoa" that is in the two protein shakes w/ soy milk I've had, then I guess I've missed it by a little, but if you count that than you're just being a hard ass and I don't want you to read my blog anymore...and you can't come to my birthday either. Anyway, it's really been hard!! Harder than I even imagined. Especially this weekend. Its like all my favorite foods came out to tempt me. Frito's. French Onion Dip. Gelato. Cheeseburgers. Oooey Gooey Cheesy Pizza. CUPCAKES . Even CHEDDAR JALAPENO CHEETOS !!!!! Dun, dun, dun.... *dramatic 50's horror film scream* And I resisted them ALL. I'm actually really proud of myself! AND I've worked out 5 out of those 7 days, two of which included 30 min workouts with my very own personal trainer - J, duh. And ...

...I met J. We talked on the phone ( texting back and forth) all weekend and then decided to meet each other on Sunday evening. I'll never forget how nervous I was walking up to his apartment and the instant relief and comfort I felt when he met me on the sidewalk with a big hug. I can't believe how fast its gone and yet, it feels like we've known each much, much longer than 10 tiny months. By far the greatest relationship I've ever been in - I think I say this a lot but its true. It hasn't been a ray of sunshine and roses everyday but I would be concerned if it had been. Imperfectly perfect. And we laugh together more than I do with all of my other friends combined. So, here's a mushy gushy shout out to my awesome, hunky boyfriend and Best Friend!! Mwah ! I love you :o)

Random Tidbits ~I'm feeling better today than my hot-mess of a self yesterday. Something about vomiting your problems out onto the Internet seems to help tons. Like airing your dirty laundry. Plus, if your friends don't want to listen to you whine. They can stop reading without feeling guilty. ~I have the bestest sister on the planet. That's a fact people, not an opinion. She texted me last night to ask if I was ok . Perfect response, checking in with me without forcing me to talk. Love that lady. Plus, she is a top notch breeder. Her offspring is pretty much the most adorable little man on the face of the plant. That there could possibly be an opinion, I am a smidge biased. ~I started an Acai Berry Detox diet today. Its gonna be two weeks of pure hell. No sugar, that includes sweeteners , only ONE cup of black coffee a day, no dairy ( ie no cheese or yogurt - GASP), no CHOCOLATE, no wheat products, no fat. I keep telling myself - its only two weeks, its only two wee...

First things first, I'm venting. Second of all, I'm depressed, in a funk, feeling sorry for myself - whatever... This isn't going to be cute, or nice, or witty . I'm in a shitty mood. Lastly, I realize there are people that have it so much worse than I do. I know I am blessed to have the things that I do, and have the people in my life that I do. Again, see #2. Now, if you still want to read on, at least you've been warned. I'm sick and tired of feeling like I'm just not enough. In any aspect. I'm not thin enough , I don't work out enough , I don't make enough money, I can't get enough done around the house, I don't eat well enough , I'm not good enough at my job. Its exhausting being so hard on yourself all the time. I've spent a good majority of my life feeling this way and being depressed and always feeling like I am just not good enough and never will be able to keep up. I am at that age that I accept that I will never be ...

I'm an avid follower of my sister's Blog Mommy Loves Giveaways because she gets to review some pretty sweet stuff - not to mention all the cool free stuff I get to hear about companies sending her. I enter into a lot of her giveaways, but I have to share this one! I LOVE this idea. :o) Waste Not Recycled Art She takes your photos and makes blocks out of them to spell out any word/words you want. The best part it, she maneuvers the letters around the faces on the photos! I think its pretty awesome and as much as I like to think "I could totally do that myself", I know it wouldn't turn out half as cool as this: I know, right??! This is my sister's FREE set that she was sent to review. Did I mention she go it for... FRREEEE !!?! I totally want one!! So go check out her blog and sign up to win a super awesome FREE set of your own. Or don't so I can win it mah -self. *wink* Check the rest of the Etsy site while you're at it. You won't regret it!