Mommy Guilt is BRUTAL (and apparently so is Gerbers Mac N Cheese)

I officially hate those Gerber Mac N Cheese micro-meals!

I heated one up to have Jason feed to Brazos a couple nights ago... Little did I know that 30 seconds in the microwave = MOLTEN CHEESY LAVA! Brazos screamed bloody murder on the second bite. Jason and I screamed bloody murder at each other for it burning him.

Now...Brazos has a blister on his tongue. Won't even take his BINKIE. Tonya just sent me a message and said it has busted open and its hurting him. Dude - SUCKY!

[Holding Back Tears & Sobs from the Heartbreak]

I called the dr office and they assured me it was a non-issue as long as it doesn't get red and/or he gets a fever (ie gets infected). I had to make him a dr appt to get his ears checked (they are bothering him again - lovely) so I'll have them look at it then just to be sure.

Gah, does the GUILT kill you or just make you suffer for eternity?!

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