A Girl and Her Boys

Look at my handsome little man ~ he's barely a baby anymore! Where do I begin with all the amazing things he's accomplished in the last month... First, he had a dr appt on Tuesday for his well-baby visit and he got his hemoglobin checked (it was perfect) and got flu shot: part 1. He weighs 22 lbs 4.5oz - 88%, and is 18.25 in long - 94%. How did I get such a tall baby?! HAHA Dr said he has to start weaning off the bottle by around 11 months (should be complete off at 15 months) so we are going to start training on the sippy cup hardcore! I'm not really feeling sad about this because that is just one step closer to NO FORMULA! 3 more months and he can drink cows milk - thank goodness (I have issues with formula if you can't tell ;). Speaking of in 3 months - In THREE MONTHS, my little baby will be O*N*E! o.O I can't even think about that right now... Accomplishments this month - Standing On His Own...WITHOUT HOLDING ON! He's going to be walking before he's a ...

Starting weight: 166.4 Last week's weight: 161.6 Current weight: 161.0 Weight +GAIN / -LOSS this week: -0.6 Total weight lost: -5.4 Not a bad week...a loss is a loss is a loss, right? I don't have much to post on this one since I have another post coming tomorrow. We'll see what the scale reads in the morning! :)

"Lol if you got cloned, would you have sex with yourself?" Seriously...how am I suppose to compose myself at work with texts like these. The answer is No in case you were wondering, would you? No judgement if you would - I just prefer male parts over female, even if they are "mine". And who wants to see what they actually look like during the act - I mean, wouldn't that give you a complex?! It would me, I'm hard enough on myself as it is...I don't need to know what I actually look like to other people. Heh. This is a weird post.

Starting weight: 166.4 Last week's weight: 162.0 Current weight: 161.6 Weight +GAIN / -LOSS this week: -0.4 Total weight lost: -4.8 Well, a loss is a loss but I'm disappointed because yesterday morning I weighed 160.4 lbs. My husband FORCE-FED me Mexican food last night. Those terribly yummy chips & espinoca, refried beans, and fish tacos...I was helpless against them. So, I think I should get to say I'm 6 lbs down - YAY! I went and ran twice this week and that's about it for the working out. I know, I'm a slacker but I just am not in the mood to give up anymore of my free time with my bubs...so, there you go. I'll hop back on the workout train again soon I'm sure [the constant urging/nagging of the hubster will make sure of that] . For now, I'll workout when I make it to the gym or get a chance to run around the block a couple times. And I just wanted to note - My fat pants are getting very loose again! Yay - go me! Happy Dieting Ya'll!

I came home from work on Friday and had this waiting for me on the table. Roses and lilies and a mushy love card. I needed this. I nearly cried and I don't think my hubby knows just how much this meant to me. I gave him a big hug and kiss and a thank you. To put it very mildly, he made my day. The message in the card...I needed that too. Even if you think you know how someone feels, it still is so comforting to see it in that person's handwriting, even if you've already seen it before. Thanks babe for making me remember what it feels like to be "us" again. Did I mention, I really needed that.

Starting weight: 166.4 Last week's weight: 161.4 Current weight: 162.0 Weight +GAIN / -LOSS this week: +0.6 Total weight lost: -4.4 Yeah, I gained weight. I really have no excuse other than, I think my lack of diet and exercise is catching up to me [thank you Captain Obvious]. I'm going to have to bust my hump to make up for that this week and get back on track... I'm just not in the mood to focus on this stuff right now but I really think if I could get down to my weight goal, I would be a little happier with myself. Have to make it a priority again... And who knows, maybe I could really use this as a positive distraction. Bleh, finding motivation is so hard for me. You'd think looking at the scale every other day would be enough... I hope everyone else is doing better than I am!

Ever feel like you are standing in the middle of a crowded room screaming at the top of your lungs like a lunatic and no one hears you or they just don't care??? I feel like that. I've been putting off writing this post because well, its a crappy one, but I just need to get this off my chest. I'm just not happy. I feel I have no control over my own life. I don't like the way things are going. At. All. I can't make any of my own decisions and I feel like I'm smothering to death. Every move I make is the wrong one. Work, home, family, friends...everything. I feel so alone. I know if I'd reach out, there are people I can talk to but some things I just don't want to discuss with anyone. There are things I'm struggling with that I just don't want the opinions or judgement or backlash of those involved. I don't want to hear it. Or I'm just too embarrassed. I know this doesn't make any sense to anyone but me, and that's fine. I feel very...